I've wondered if I'd ever get past it...ever get over it. I've wondered if I wasn't letting it go as a form of self-sabotage...not being able to fully appreciate the good in this area of my life that exists today because this negative experience is nagging, always nagging, me in the back of my mind...in a way, keeping me safe...keeping me from loving fully. I've wondered why living in that pain seemed to be necessary, somehow, for me right now.
Yesterday I read something about how we could change - or neutralize - our negative feelings by imagining a different outcome or different experience as something more positive. It got me thinking about what I would have preferred happened all those months ago.
Interestingly, through all my reflection, I was able to really see and feel deep in my heart that what happened was perfect. The experience is part of what has gotten me to such a positive place in my life in this area. I kind of wished it had ended differently but I wasn't able to come up with something I would prefer until this morning...
And then the answer was there. The truth was there. Truth. Not the crap we make up in our head. Not the assumptions we make based on partial information or no information at all. But the truth. It had been there all along...I was just so wrapped up in the hurt and pain that I didn't see it. How it truthfully ended was exactly what I would have wished, if I'd been able to write the story myself. I can't believe I missed those facts. They were there in print...in black and white...available for me to see all along. But I didn't see it...I wanted to feel like a victim. I wanted to wallow in my self-pity. Why? I have no idea but it was serving me somehow. And now I could let it go.
This lesson ties into the lessons I've learned about perception...how powerful perception can be whether it's truth or not. It ties into our ability to manifest. By stepping off that wheel of fear and into my heart, my reality changed. The outcome of that situation was perfect in every way. It always was. I just couldn't see it before.
Today my heart is full of love and appreciation for the truth. For being able to see it. For being able to love fully, without hesitation and without feeling a need to keep myself safe. Because I am safe in every way simply because I allowed myself to open up to the truth and shift my reality.
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That's such an empowering post Michele. I've experienced that myself as well, and it's literally life changing. It totally shifts things, and it's like once you get to point B it doesn't make the slightest difference what the journey to get there was like. Just being there is what's important. I feel really excited for you - there's never any going back once you had a paradigm shift. Things just keep expanding when we let got of the limitations. Keep crossing the bridges and celebrating your beautiful journey!
ReplyDeleteTruth is the most powerful joy I know.
ReplyDeleteYou're so so right.
This was potent, friend....thank you.
-Jennifer
Truth...a powerful joy and very powerful in releasing us from the prison we so often put ourselves in.
ReplyDeleteIt is amazing what a difference it can make! Here's to lots of bridges being crossed :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a positive way to handle things. This reminds me a lot about a challenge (I can't remember where I picked it up) to refuse to say, think, or complain negatively for an entire day. It really does change the way you treat your day and the attitude you keep.
ReplyDeleteThis is so powerful, Michele. It really is about our perception. Sometimes we can be so off of what the truth really is. Thank you for this post.
ReplyDeleteKathy
Our thoughts are so powerful! Just letting go or reframing an experience makes such a difference.
ReplyDeleteYes, letting go or reframing can make all the difference in the world...and so important so we are able to move forward and embrace all the greatness the future holds.
ReplyDeleteYou would think I wouldn't be surprised anymore but I am always so shocked when I discover how "off" my perception can be about something in my life. It's so important to remind ourselves that there is a difference between perception and truth.
ReplyDeleteHi Michele,
ReplyDeleteI know that bridge. At least I think I do! Can't wait to ride past it!
It is a little bridge I found on my road trip between Taylors Falls and Stillwater. I can't remember the name of the place I stopped at but they had an amazing little wooded area with a creek along the St. Croix River.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Michele! <3 Yes indeed...when we can raise ourselves up to see whatever it is in our life from a higher perspective...the view changes! It is like magic...a most divine magic!! XOXO
ReplyDeleteIt is like magic, isn't it? :)
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